~~ amor vincit omnia ~~

2011-03-16T20:36:00.000+08:00

How much stronger do I have to become in order to get through all these?

2011-03-13T21:36:00.001+08:00

Why couldn't life be better after so many years of hardship?

Why am I left behind alone?

2010-05-07T14:43:00.002+08:00

Couldn't believe it really happen.

I would regret making this decision, but at this point of time, I really couldn't think of any other solution.

This is for the best for both of us.

2010-05-07T00:56:00.003+08:00

It's been months since I last written any entry for blog.

I always thought I knew what I wanted in life, but actually there is nothing in mind and I'm not heading towards where I wanted.

I always blame him for everything bad that has happen, but I didn't look back at myself and ask if I have put in any effort.

I have always protect myself so whatever bad things that happen, I would be the least affected. So much so that, whenever there is any dispute, I would be the one to ask for break-up.

This has happen once before, now is the 2nd time. And the feeling that this relationship is going to end is very strong.

2009-10-31T12:24:00.002+08:00

The end of something is the start of something new.

How true is this?

2009-10-26T21:09:00.001+08:00

How do you define happiness?

2009-10-04T11:25:00.002+08:00

Should I be happy when he do things to make me happy or rather be sad because he do it just to make me happy but without any meaning behind it?

2009-09-26T08:15:00.003+08:00

How would days without you be like?

2009-09-24T22:30:00.002+08:00

How would things be in 1yr, 2yrs or even 5yrs down the road.

2009-09-10T13:32:00.001+08:00

Nothing happen like the way I want it to be.

2009-09-06T19:56:00.000+08:00

In need of another holiday.

2009-08-26T10:44:00.001+08:00

Nothing is forever just like feelings would fade.

2009-08-19T23:33:00.001+08:00

Today is one of those 'not-so-happy' days.

2009-07-29T23:17:00.001+08:00

Looking forward to weekend.

2009-07-18T09:04:00.000+08:00

Getting bored of the life I am leading.

2009-07-15T19:52:00.002+08:00

Today is one of those days that I don't feel like talking to anyone.

All I wanted is to be alone.

2009-07-13T15:42:00.002+08:00

Looking forward to next holiday trip.

2009-07-04T09:17:00.001+08:00

I wanted more but you could not give.

2009-06-25T15:32:00.002+08:00

Looking forward to saterday.

2009-06-19T20:08:00.001+08:00

Taking things too hard?

2009-06-16T21:21:00.001+08:00

Am I being too selfish?

Is what I need really demanding?

Would I ever get what I need?

2009-06-13T10:11:00.000+08:00

Looking forward to 27th June.

2009-06-11T10:12:00.002+08:00

I have been drinking almost every week since last December.

Seems like alittle too much.

So when I finally decided to quit drinking, or maybe cut down the frequency.

Told my friends and colleagues that I wanted to quit drinking, but no one believe me.

I am not a drinker, I am not so in love with drinking.

I just happen to be drinking every week.

2009-06-05T08:12:00.001+08:00

Was it a mistake?

2009-06-01T20:36:00.001+08:00

Quite afew months since I last blog.

Time flies.

2009-01-29T09:47:00.002+08:00

Are human by nature greedy?

2009-01-26T11:16:00.001+08:00

Higher expectation, comes with greater disappointment.

2009-01-22T23:25:00.001+08:00

Looking ahead for what is awaiting.

2009-01-21T20:44:00.001+08:00

What is the future waiting ahead?

2009-01-18T17:09:00.002+08:00

How far would it goes?

2009-01-14T22:27:00.003+08:00

Life is not as complicated as it looks.

You just need to figure it out, one time.

2009-01-10T18:30:00.002+08:00

Would things stay like it is right now?

2009-01-06T23:41:00.002+08:00

New year, new start.

2009-01-02T20:47:00.003+08:00

How far can I go?

2009-01-01T15:52:00.002+08:00

Things are most beautiful when you stay far enough to watch.

2008-12-29T20:14:00.001+08:00

Anywhere close to perfect.

2008-12-27T14:22:00.002+08:00

Enjoy the best of both world.

2008-12-25T14:36:00.001+08:00

Happy memories.

2008-12-21T11:58:00.003+08:00

When every breathe feels so hard.

When every thought brings only tears.

All I wanted is to escape from reality.

Maybe it is too much to ask for.

2008-12-18T22:01:00.002+08:00

Losing all that I could possibly have.

2008-12-12T23:03:00.002+08:00

Numb myself to block all the pain.

2008-12-07T14:58:00.000+08:00

The pain that lasts.

2008-12-05T21:25:00.002+08:00

Dreams.

2008-12-03T21:38:00.002+08:00

Leaving no regrets.

2008-12-01T21:25:00.001+08:00

To give is better than to receive.

2008-11-30T11:58:00.001+08:00

So close yet so far.

2008-11-24T22:00:00.000+08:00

Time goes by, and people change.

2008-11-19T21:17:00.002+08:00

Once it's gone, it's gone.

2008-11-18T23:22:00.002+08:00

I need a break.

2008-11-14T20:31:00.003+08:00

Never asking for return.

2008-11-10T23:35:00.003+08:00

No point doing something, yet at the end of the day you regret doing it.

2008-11-09T17:59:00.002+08:00

Memories would be the things left when you think back.

Be it be something you would simle at, or something that you would rather not recall.

2008-11-07T23:04:00.001+08:00

Give up to achieve more.

2008-11-06T22:01:00.001+08:00

On my own.

2008-11-01T22:32:00.001+08:00

Would anything good happen to me?

2008-10-31T00:30:00.004+08:00

I have been workin OT for the past few days.

Have the thought of going to the beach.

Seems like it is only when I am at the beach, where I could find a little pleasure.

2008-10-25T21:00:00.002+08:00

Wanted to be selfish.

2008-10-22T21:23:00.002+08:00

Where would I be 2, 5, or even 10yrs down the road.

2008-10-19T20:31:00.001+08:00

Living the life I wanted.

2008-10-16T00:09:00.002+08:00

Not able to live up to expectations.

2008-10-12T14:12:00.001+08:00

Would it be possible to forgive someone who has hurt you deeply.

2008-10-08T21:27:00.001+08:00

To give and take.

2008-10-05T20:49:00.002+08:00

Nowadays, people like to announce when is their birthday even without having others asking.

2008-10-02T22:18:00.002+08:00

Working hard to earn something that does not belong to me.

2008-10-01T00:02:00.002+08:00

Investing in something that brings nothing in the end, purely for entertainment.

2008-09-29T23:37:00.003+08:00

Miss the time spent at the beach.

When would be the next time.

2008-09-25T23:30:00.002+08:00

Holding on to the dream you give me.

2008-09-21T12:51:00.005+08:00

Do you really know who you really are.

2008-09-19T00:50:00.002+08:00

What would you do if you knew that you do not have much time left.

2008-09-14T23:54:00.004+08:00

3am in the morning, I sat by the beach, listening to mp3.

But I think it is something that I would do, something crazy like this.

2008-09-10T22:17:00.002+08:00

To put in all your strength, yet at the end of the day, all you get back in return is tears and pain.

2008-09-05T00:12:00.001+08:00

To feel belong.

2008-09-02T21:01:00.001+08:00

Becoming the one that others can depend on.

2008-09-01T22:44:00.001+08:00

Stay close to me, so I would not lose sight of you.

2008-08-29T21:14:00.000+08:00

Never able to keep your promise.

2008-08-27T21:04:00.001+08:00

The beinging of something is the end of another.

2008-08-21T07:42:00.003+08:00

Ended up with nothing.

2008-08-18T07:52:00.001+08:00

How possbile is it for 'happily ever after' to happen.

2008-08-16T20:31:00.003+08:00

It takes a lot of courage to trust someone, but even more faith to believe.

2008-08-13T22:33:00.001+08:00

If you could not keep your promise, then do not even promise anything in 1st place.

2008-08-11T12:41:00.002+08:00

Looking forward to oversea trip at the end of the year or the start of next year.

2008-08-07T07:55:00.001+08:00

In order to gain something, you have to lose something.

2008-08-02T20:51:00.003+08:00

What is it like to be sad yet not able to cry in tears?

2008-08-01T21:45:00.001+08:00

In deep thoughts.

2008-07-29T22:13:00.002+08:00

Regret for not being better.

2008-07-27T12:10:00.003+08:00

You have to lose something in order to treasure it.

2008-07-25T00:44:00.005+08:00

I applied leave to go for scoliosis check-up.

I was afraid that it has become worse.

Everything was normal, but the doctor recommend me to go for x-ray in 3months' time.

2008-07-23T21:54:00.001+08:00

Live for your own sake and for no other reason.

2008-07-19T22:04:00.003+08:00

How is it possible to hate or even forget someone that you once loved.

And at the end of the day, you could just love someone else.

Is it because you did not love the person as much or you just manage to find someone as replacement.

2008-07-17T23:10:00.001+08:00

The fear to lose something I own, makes me fear more to want to have something I own.

2008-07-13T13:09:00.001+08:00

Rainbow is lost for good.

It flew out the window after mum accidently stepped onto its tail.

We tried looking for it, but we could not find it.

It makes me wonder if it can survive on its own.

After being a pet for so long, would it lost its natural ability to look for food and shelter.

2008-07-08T20:40:00.002+08:00

I need something to hold on to.

Be it someone or something.

I need something that belongs to me.

The desire is so great that I feel I could just fall apart as day goes by without it.

I wonder if there is anything that belongs only to me.

2008-07-06T08:47:00.002+08:00

Hc said something and it kept me thinking about it.

'Somehow you just look different from the others.'

Maybe it is the way I dress that is different from others.

And I had people asking me if I am Singaporen.

I wondered if I have dress up like someone from other country.

2008-07-01T22:18:00.002+08:00

It is hard to love someone

But it is ever harder to hate someone you since love.

However, it is hardest to forgive someone who had once hurt you.

2008-06-29T22:51:00.002+08:00

Today was dad's birthday.

It was the 3rd time the whole family sat down for dinner.

The 1st time was ht's birthday, mum's birthday, and today was the 3rd time.

Everyone has their own activity, so even a dinner together makes it seems so hard to gather everyone.

2008-06-28T19:58:00.002+08:00

Sometimes I wonder which is the real me.

The one who is independant, cool-minded, someone who looks after others.

Or I am the one who is dependant on someone, someone who needs people's attention, someone who wants to be looked after.

2008-06-25T07:50:00.002+08:00

Ht would be going to Thailand before his school starts.

When would I be able to save sufficient funds to travel to Japan.

And with the expenses I spent every month, I believe my holiday trip would have to be postpose for quite some time.

2008-06-21T00:03:00.002+08:00

So much thoughts to learn muay thai, but I still could not make up my mind to register for class.

Maybe I should really consider it again, because I did not want to invest my time and energy for something that I would not want to do in afew month's time.

2008-06-17T07:53:00.001+08:00

I could not make up my mind what to learn.

Be it japanese, swimming or guitar.

Suddenly I was thinking of learning muay thai.

Everything seems interesting to me, but at the end of the day, I only wanted one that I would sustain my passion in.

2008-06-15T15:01:00.002+08:00

Am I not good enough?

Have I fail as a daughter?

Have I fail as a sister?

Have I fail as person?

Have I not done my part?

~*~ amor vincit omnia ~*~

~~ amor vincit omnia ~~